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Be Better
6:33 PM
Wanted to take some time off on Sunday to reflect because the week had been a tumultuous one but we can only do so much in 24 hours (although I can't decide if it would be better if we were granted more than that).
So this week. Felt like I was in the dumps both emotionally, mentally and physically and I absolutely hated it arghghghghgh.
My emotions were all over the place and I felt out of sorts for a good part of the week. Being a constant dreamer is tough guys I hate it arghghghghgh.
I've also been making stupid mistakes at work !! !! !! It's been more than a month but I'm still making amateur mistakes and that should NOT happen. So yes, I felt even more shit damn it I hated it arghghghghgh. I'm not the most analytical nor the most meticulous (which are the two more important requirements of this job). Trying so hard to be so so so much better than this.
To make things worse, I didn't have time to squeeze in sweat-sessions so I felt absolutely soft and jello-like ugh I hate myself arghghghghgh.
Trying to find meaning in the little (and the bigger) things that I do. Does life seem like a waste if what you do doesn't make a difference? Maybe what you're doing does have an effect in the bigger picture but is it a picture that you care about? Had a long breakfast/brunch/lunch with Cheryl this morning and got all of the above out. Conversations are therapeutic :')
Ok end of rant I feel better this week will be good!!! OK BYE.
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