If anything, I've realised how much of a dreamer I am. I have overlooked the ability of my mind to conjure up scenarios that would never, never happen -- in other words, I overthink. A lot. It has never been much of a problem, until I realised how much disappointment this overthinking brings me. A few times this year I've found myself in tears because of this, and that I definitely don't like to feel.

So this coming year, I would like to tone that down a notch. To be less of a dreamer and more of a realist -- to stop my mind from running wild and to prevent myself from getting hurt again.

Today someone told me that I succumb to my moments of weakness more often than I believe I should be allowed to. But because I'm a fighter, I can overcome it. I am a fighter. I am always fighting. Sometimes I wonder if all these expectations of me being strong created the illusion that I am strong. That I'm A-OK!!!!!!!! Yea. I am.

Yet another year to prove to myself that I'm as brave as how others see me. And another year to not let them down.

Whenever I meet a friend I haven't seen for awhile we always start off with, "how's life", and my answer is, and genuinely, "it's great really". I know that I have so much to be thankful for, and I am. So so so much. For the things that are on track in my life, for the problems I don't have to worry about, and the people who surround me with love. I am so loved, which is why I'd hate to disappoint anyone.

In 2018 I want to take charge of my own life. I want my life to be rich with meaning, to be great. I wanna be at my best. So yes, to more self-discovery and on top of that, to protect myself better, to count my blessings and to always, always be kind, that goes without saying.