We're almost to the halfway-mark of semester 2 and I think I'm keeping up better this time compared to the last. Suddenly it's February although it feels as if 2013 just ended last week. It's so intriguing how time messes with the way you perceive things.

I've got 8 more presentations to clear (last one in Week 13) and a few reports due in between. I find this semester a little easier most probably because I don't have any darn mathematical modules in my way (calculus last semester was a killer). So all my 5 mods currently require a lot of readings (which I quite enjoy, to be honest). Of course there're the annoying core mods that need us to smoke/fluff/all-that-facade which I find a little time consuming, completely not worth the time we spend on them.

Gym trainings have been taking up three of my weeknights and water training, my weekends (except this Saturday thanks to make-up class). Sailing has become quite an integrative part of my life now such that I feel a little lost if it was taken away. Working out definitely feels extremely good (after) and being at the bow of the boat gives me a sense of familiarity and tranquility. Its no wonder people say the sea has a calming effect.

I've thought about it thoroughly (yes, I can be mature and deep too) and came up with this postulation: school (i.e. lessons) is merely a co-curricular activity and the rest of your daily-doings are the main part of life. Forgive my inarticulation. What I mean to say is, the better parts of life like birthday celebrations, family dinners, sailing, reading a book, being in the org comm etc., should be your main concern whereas going for classes is just a CCA (not including studying/revising). I hope that makes many of you feel better because I have conscientiously inculcated this thought into my head.

Another reason why I'm happier this semester will most probably be because I've finally found a fixed group of friends to while away my university life. It may sound extremely superficial and shallow and I may sound extremely needy and clingy but, who wouldn't want friends that'll always be there? I have friends outside my sailing circle, and I absolutely adore them. But it's difficult for us to meet every single day to either study or have a meal together. Everyone has so many different commitments and we take different mods at various timings. We find ourselves in project meetings or school studies during our free time. It makes me sad to think that I've got no one to turn to when I need someone (I'm sorry I sound so pathetic and childish).

I also want to apologise for neglecting the people I love (outside of SMU). I've barely had time for myself (scratch that, I've had NO time for myself ever since the bulk of school came raining down), not to mention my girlfriends. And I feel downright shitty about it. Time management has never been my forte but I'm not getting any better at it. I'm not managing my time well, to put it straight. I don't say it often enough but all these people mean more than the whole world to me. I cannot fathom losing any of our friendship. My biggest fear is definitely drifting apart from the people I love and cherish. I know saying all these isn't helping because I still cannot spare that bit of time for them regardless. But I want them to know that every time something good happens, I want to share the joy and laughter with them and every time something bad happens, I want to cry on their shoulders. This is really coming from me. You know who you are and you will know that I love you.

Spent the past five hours on schoolwork and I cannot carry on with my project when the gears in my brain aren't oiled well (ha, the metaphor).

Goodnight.